What Now?

I’ve just had a much-needed nap.  Things have been hectic and I get so tired.

Mom has been packing, packing, and repacking.  Now she says that she will fly home by herself and Dad will bring us later.  Plans keep changing over and over again.  She says she has her ticket and will be going home on September 11.  I don’t know when that is, but it must be soon.  She says she doesn’t want to leave us here, so why will she?  Why doesn’t she just stay, too?  We don’t want her to go.  It’s not that we don’t love Dad, because we love him a lot, we just need both of them here with us.

Now there has been another change.  Dad got a call the other day and said that someone wanted to give Mom a job.  There is that job thing again.  At least they don’t want to give me a job!  She and Dad went away early one day and came back at night.  They seemed pretty happy, now they say that Mom will not be flying away.  Well, that’s okay with me, but I’m not sure what has happened to change things.  We are still here in these two rooms, both Mom and us, and everything seems to be the same.

On another day, Mom packed up her two big suitcases and she and Dad left the house.  They were gone several days, but only Dad came back.  Where is Mom?  Has she actually flown away?  Mina and I are very concerned.  Mom has escaped from prison, but we are still here.  It’s true that we have Dad, and sometimes he sleeps on the bed where Mom slept.  In fact, sometimes he lets us come out of our rooms and sleep with him in the couch room.  Dad’s mother sleeps there on the couch.  I know that her knees hurt her a lot, so I decided to go and lie on them to keep them warm for her, but she didn’t like it very much.  Sometimes humans just have no sense at all.  Anyway, we can go into the couch room at night, so that’s some improvement over our two rooms.  Why couldn’t we have done that sooner, when Mom was still here?  Life is just a big mystery sometimes.  We do not see Mom at all, so maybe she has left us for good and we will never see her again.  That would be horrible!

I miss Mom so much!  Where can she be?  I’m sure she wouldn’t just leave us, but what else can I think.  Dad is gone most of every day, and his mother goes with him, so we are all alone in our two prison rooms.  I think I will go crazy.  There have just been way too many changes in our lives, and too many people coming and going, and Mom going away a lot.  What if we never see her again?  Mom, Mom, wherever you are, please come home to your babies!  We love you and miss you.  Please come back!  Dad says that we will be with her soon in our new home.  Right!  Where have we heard that one before?  A new home.  Sure!  Maybe Mom is dead!

I have to sleep now.  If I don’t, I think I will go over the edge!

Yours,

Apache